Blogs have always been a thing of mystery to me. I can't help but wonder "Does anyone really want to bother to read my babble?" Then I got pregnant with twins. Fully expecting to be happily pregnant with baby number two, the 6 week ultrasound told me differently - pregnant with baby number two AND baby number three. In a matter of minutes, 1000 different thoughts and emotions went through my mind. One of the first being "I am going to have to quit my job and be a stay at home mother. How am I going to handle that?" After coming to terms with the fear and miracle of a twin pregnancy, I started to come up with a plan as to how exactly I am going to keep my sanity with 3 babies under 2 at home all day after working full time for over 13 years. The idea of my babbling to no one starting to make a bit more sense to me. In the end, this blog is for me. This blog is a place for my thoughts to remain MY thoughts. A place for me to maintain my identity. I will actually look at this blog as a job.
Other than my lovely family, which I am so grateful for, I have other interests that I hope to keep alive over the next several years at home. I love design, of any kind, and hope to have more time to explore that area of my brain. About a year ago, John and I purchased a "new" home. Built in 1963, fully equipped with parquet and peg board flooring, wall panelling, terrible lighting choices, even more terrible tile and carpet choices, and other such niceties - in short, we found ourselves a project! The house is a big, giant part of me, and I love all the projects and pain it entails. So in addition to posts on this crazy pregnancy, my beautiful little girl, and my John, I will likely be adding any and all progress we make on this house we'd like to eventually call our home.
So after this post, I am an official Blogger. I am sharing my thoughts with friends and strangers, but most of all, I'm keeping a record of me. I simply refuse to lose my identity in the soon to be craziness that will encompass my world. I believe the big man upstairs does not give us anything we cannot handle, it's just all in the way we decide to handle it. I may not handle life's little (or big) surprises with grace, or style, or even clean language, but I simply plan on handling them with honesty, and in a way that keeps me true to myself. With maybe a little dry humor dropped in here or there. Happy reading, whoever you are.
On a side note - I am exquisitely computer illiterate, so the face of this blog could change on a daily basis as I learn how this whole system works. And besides, what fun is stuff that doesn't change all the time??
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